I know that 2016 was a shitty shit show for a lot of you, but for me – it was sort of empowering. I left a job that I felt totally stuck in. That’s right.. after 10 years, I quit. I wasn’t growing with the position, nor did I care to, and it didn’t feel good for my soul to put e i g h t long hours a day into something that wasn’t making me happy. And also, I don’t like being told what to. So when all the planets aligned and the universe handed me the opportunities to move on, I peed my pants a little, had a few sleepless nights, pulled up my big girl panties (fresh ones) and then took them. HAVEN’T LOOKED BACK. Scary as fuck, but empowering.
Let me be clear though.. I didn’t quit to write a book (one day, maybe) or open a business or something crazy cool like that. I quit to build my Beautycounter business (it’s been surprisingly lucrative) and to work part-time at a pilates studio that I’ve been a member of for about 3 years – mainly focusing on client relations and sales/marketing. *This isn’t a new field for me. I was in the fitness industry before finance.
So here I am! Working part-time, making my own hours to some extent, spending more time with my family, sharing/creating, diving into my strengths, facing my weaknesses, and wearing super cute athletic gear all day erryday. Not a bad gig.
Of course, nothing with an upside is without its downside(s). I left a very secure job, I took a pay cut, benefits are harder to come by, and how much I do get paid is directly related to how hard I work. Plus.. time. Where did all my time go? I had so much time when I sat behind a desk all day. Now I get up and BAM – my schedule is full. There’s always something to do, somewhere to be. And some days, I only mark off 2 of the 10 things that are on my to-do list. Some days I feel so overwhelmed that I end up doing nothing. But then there are days when I get shit done and get to sit on the couch and read for an hour, which feels odd because have I actually earned the break? Have I worked hard enough? Like, who decides when I get to take a break and feel okay about it? Me?! If that’s the case, I might need to be a tougher boss.
I don’t have it all figured out. I’m literally all over the place right now. But I’m gonna keep on keepin’ on because I’m ready for these new challenges and experiences.
Cheers to not waiting!